Lifeless.

Back to uni. It's been so long since i came back. Omg missed Taylor's so much. First week of class is kinda, urghhh, boring! I have been sleeping in every lecture class. Like seriously, especially in English lecture. Omg the lecturer take us as babies, she talks like a kindergarten teacher trying to teach us uni student to spell A, B and C. Lmao.

Selca during lecture to pass the time is what we always do. HAHA.

Although uni life is back, and i'm back as a full time business student. But drinking had never been left out. Was at Sunway Giza Beer Factory at a Wednesday night to have myself a free flow drink. My driver took me there lol. It's kinda awkward how someone is so willing to fetch me from Puchong all the to Giza without joining me to drink lol. But still, a special thank you to my driver that night. :)

Got my Beer Factory limited singlet and start drinking. Saw him there although i don't know who he's with. Drank 5 bottle in an hour time lol. Don't know how i do it, guess that i drink alot when i'm angry. But then i left early, with him to watch a movie at Paradigm Mall. Finally, got a chance to watch Spiderman. It's a nice movie, but then i feel that Batman is much more better lol. Reached home at about 2 something. Gave him a goodbye kiss on the lips and left. The end. No more story to be told.

Realized that i club twice every week. Like seriously, this is never a good sign. Was at G6 and Vertigo the previous weekend. And headed to Genting with my babes. Saw Singapore's Lamborghini Team. Like omg, i'm guessing that there are over 50 Lamborghini there. Beautiful omg.

And was at G6 both days this weekend. Wasn't really having fun at both days. Pissed like shit the first day. And bored like shit the second day. I don't wanna say much, but you can't imagine how fucking pissed i am. Gonna cut down on clubbing. Had enough of this fucked up scene. Fed up with all those fucked up people. And i gave up on this fucked up love life. Fucked up.

Feeling so lifeless. It's like i have nothing in my life except for drinking. All i know how to do is drink, drank and drunk. All i know is how to be fucked up emotional about him. Fuck my life. I miss the old days. I miss the old me.

Bitter-sweet.

It's the middle on the night, and i'm here blogging about how miserable my life is. Lol just joking, not miserable, just sometimes i feel sad with my life. Long story so i'll just skip it.

Was at Pacific Coffee at a Thursday afternoon. Had a lil' tea time alone with a cup of mocha brownies and chicken pie. I enjoy being in coffee shops, idk why but it make me feel kinda better. Guess it's because most of the people there came alone, and when everyone is alone, i somehow feel better. Because i know that i'm not the only one feeling lonely.

Then i was at Paparich. Somehow Jolene then asked me to Beer Factory to have some one on one girls talk. And Arthur came to pick me up, no, he din't came to pick me up, he came to scold me lol. Went to Beer Fac and have ourself 12 shot of Strawberry Long Island and a tower of Heineken. Was enjoying ourself and then suddenly a bunch of old man, seriously old, came to so call "make friends" with us. I was like omg you can be my dad already lol. Awkward much. Hit the road and left Beer Fac without finishing the half tower, wasted. Thanks to the old man there. -,-

Was kidnap by Arthur and JiaWei to have a lil' business with them. Went to JiaWei house and his mommy let me eat like alot lol, salad and cheese cake HAHA! JiaWei bed is like so comfy i feel like sleeping there lol.

Watched Ice Age 4 with someone at night. Wanted to watch Spiderman but then there's no more slot. Aiks. But Ice Age is not bad too, kinda cute lol. Head to Aquasonic after the movie. It's a new club located at Sunway Pyramid. Idk why it feel kinda like Mist Club when i went in. Went home at 2.40am, lol, still kinda early for me.

Ugh i dont know what to update. Feel like life is tearing apart.

• My loved one left me because both of us tried to keep out pride and dignity, leading us to the worst stage of a relationship, breaking up. 
• My best friends kinda left me because they are too busy with studies, and of course, having one on one time with the boyfriend. Lead me hanging dead here when i needed someone's shoulder. 
• Someone that i noticed seem like he's not noticing me at all. Watching him on the line but having no guts to talk to him, because i feel like i'm annoying him or something. 
• Working always seem to be so easy, but then it wasn't. I have to face up with all those crap and nagging, putting up with all those nonsense. But for the money, it's a must to work.
• Sem break is almost over, daddy haven paid my fees, i haven got my textbook, i haven even prepared anything.

Tell me how my life could get worst. But there's always good to know someone still cares. Like my classmates that still cares and encourage me. And my family. Was so busy with things i feel like i forgotten my family. Until i got a little present from daddy yesterday morning when i woke up. He put it on my desk right beside my laptop. A perfume from France. It's seldom to see my daddy buying me stuff, because i'm kinda a spoiled brat and daddy used alot of money on me. Not mentioning my uni fees, a car that he's gonna buy me a few months later, and of course my daily entertainment. Sometimes i feel guilty, for using so much of my parents income. But then my daddy never did complained at all. Hehh. So lucky to have him as my daddy. Although i don't really spend time with you, although i don't hug you anymore, daddy i still love you always. You were always my king.